My StoryAfter 30 Years of Stuttering, Relief
Hi, my name’s John and I stutter. I’ve stuttered for 30 years, almost as long as I’ve been alive. Unlike a lot of stutterers, mine didn’t start when I was born, mine developed later in childhood (around age 9 or so). Like a lot of stutterers, I have a family history of it, something I didn’t even find out until I was in my 30’s.
Like a lot of stutterers as well, I have been through rounds of speech therapy, including elements of the “successful stuttering program”. I am grateful for this therapy, as well as one therapist in particular. More than anything, this work helped me face the deep-seated psychological impact of stuttering (e.g. having to admit to strangers, in public, you stutter).
For me, speech therapy seemed to mostly wear off. I found I would have pretty significant improvement, say 50%-60%, while I was in therapy. When I wasn’t, though, there seemed to be a decay, and disfluency would return, sometimes with a vengeance.
Enter Brain Chemistry
In my mid-30’s I happened to discover that by treating my brain chemistry (initially as a treatment for low-mood) my speech got better, a lot better. The how’s and why’s were a little illogical, and even after years of working with it and studying it, the precise specifics of exactly what is going on can be a little murky. What I do know, though, is that by primarily managing my brain chemistry, I experience about an 80%-90% reduction in stuttering, sometimes 100%.
Over the time I have worked with brain chemistry, both for myself and advice I have given other stutterers, I have found there are several ways to affect and influence brain chemistry. It isn’t as simple as ‘just pop a pill, fix your brain, and experience a higher-quality life’. If fact, paradoxically, sometimes it works backwards from that (that your brain chemistry improves as the quality of life improves). This can create vicious cycles and only by working with brain chemistry from several angles can one hope, in my opinion, to affect a meaningful, long-lasting change.
I Eat My Own Dogfood
Everything I recommend to people I work with I have either tried, or I do, regularly. I use supplements to manage my brain chemistry raw material. I exercise, I meditate. I get a good amount of high-quality sleep. I work with my sensitivities instead of against them. I combat avoidance behaviors whenever I confront them. I run an in-person stuttering support group to offer others (and myself) an opportunity to have a community of those with like-experiences.
I Get It, I’m One Too
Stuttering can be a heavy burden for some, and if it is for you, I understand. Stuttering has had a pretty deep effect on me, pretty much for my whole life. Stuttering has left an indelible mark, that although healed, is permanent. I’m sensitive to some of the deeper issues stuttering can create and I aim to create a safe space for those who stutter to be themselves and express themselves fully.
A Desire to Share
Having experienced such a life-changing level of stuttering reduction, I couldn’t help but want to share what I have found with others. Even if what worked for me only works for 1% of stutterers, that is still lots of people who could be helped.
I designed this program to help others the best way I know how. I am not a speech therapist, in fact, I look at what I do as a nice adjunct to traditional speech therapy, not as a replacement. What I am is a stutterer, a stutterer who has found a lot of relief, who wants to share it with others.
Want to Learn More?
Feel free to contact me with any questions you have.